![]() ![]() "No, the." He hesitated, "the flirting." Your stomach dropped, letting out an almost inaudible 'oh'. "Wh-what? My voice?" You asked, caught off guard by his slightly frustrated tone. "That." He said, like he had been waiting for it. "Or did you just want to listen to my pretty voice in private?" You attempted to lighten the mood, fiddling with the strings on your sweater. "Hey, what do you need to talk about?" You let your feet rest back onto the carpet, leaning towards your screen in anticipation. You were about to speak up again when the silence was finally broken by a sigh. "Hey, what's wrong?" You spoke softly, the tension in your hands causing your nails to dig into your arms. You followed in suit, pulling your knees up to your chest as you stared at his still icon. Bye-bye!" You ended the stream as Sapnap left the game. ![]() "Go drink some water and get some sleep, nerds. "Well, I think I'm gonna sign off for now, guys." You spoke in a faux cheery tone. You cleared your throat as you pocketed your phone. You checked Twitch on your phone only to confirm that they were correct. You saw a few saying that he ended his stream. You checked your chat to see a lot of worried and confused messages. "Sapnap.?" You spoke timidly, like a child that knew they were about to get a thorough talking to from a frustrated parent. You could hear your blood rushing in your ears. "Snapmap?" You tried teasing a bit, but the silence seemed to thicken. "Everything okay over there, Pandas?" You asked, but your words were met with silence. You bounced your knee, not being able to take the awkward tension. "Okay."Ī silence fell between you two, and you nervously chewed at your lip. "What's shakin', bacon?" You tried to lighten the tone of the conversation once more. You tried to swallow the lump that had begun forming in your throat, but the attempt proved unsuccessful. "I need to talk with you about something." Your chat sped up with concerned messages, also catching on the nervous tone in his voice. You thought everything was fine, so why did he sound so nervous? You had flirted back and forth as usual, wheezing at how your chat went buck wild when you did. The two of you had been casually streaming together on the SMP for a couple hours and you had thought everything was going quite swimmingly. "What's cookin', good lookin'?" You responded, trying to sound casual and unbothered by the sudden shift in your conversation. He usually only called you by your real name when there was something serious he had to talk about. "Hey, (Y/N)?" Automatically, your heart rate quickened. You can still remember it like it was yesterday. That was until he decided to break the tension between you two. You remained under the impression that you wouldn't get together because of your facelessness for a long time. Every time your audience pushed you for a face reveal, you were filled with overwhelming anxiety and had to put the prompting to a stop. You were very insecure and sensitive about your appearance, having been bullied about it since a young age. You, much like Dream, liked to keep your anonymity as much as possible. You had thought this unspoken limit was built because he had never seen your face, which you took as fair. You flirted mercilessly with eachother, teasing and pushing one another to the brink of flusteredness, but never made anything out of it. The two of you'd had an unspoken boundary, however. You had met him through Dream about two years ago, and from the moment you started talking he gave you butterflies in your stomach, and after a bit of getting to know eachother, the feeling was mutual. It had been about three months since you started dating Sapnap. after all, success isn't just defined by monetary stability right? If we can find the strength to be open (at least to ourselves, don't push down what makes you you) and proud of ourselves and what makes us unique I know we can be happy and successful. I admire them (and ofc the many other idols who do this too) a lot for sticking up for who they are and not crumbling under the standards of society, that's exactly what we should be doing especially as queer folk. that's what I wanted to say with Ten too, okay well maybe androgynous isn't how I would put it it's more, unrestricted by the bounds of societies expectations and the gender binary (!!!!! that's it :D) They both wear what they want and perform in a way that expresses who they are b e a u t i f u l l y and it's really amazing. It's like he's defying stereotypes because that's who he is and not just to get attention. I'm sure we all recall how much if a cultural reset this glorious piece of work was, I mean, everything about it is just Confidence and Power and Androgyny without being overly aggressive with it you know. ![]()
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